Tag Board

Sissy: Hey Tanya, come read my journal and find out the latest.

Sissy: Hi Tanya, Just checkin stuff out. TTYL

Crystal: He woman I put some more in my journal. That water background came from moms computer but if I ever catch u on yahoo messenger I'll send it to you. TTYL

Baily: Guess what, I have my own journal now 'cause I'm big. Click on my name and come see it.

Crystal: Hey woman I love your journal. I fixed mine up so go check it out. Love ya, bye.

Sissy: Hey Tanya, come over and read the Budwieser story!!!

Sissy: I see you figured out how to get glittery stuff. I like the little fairy.

Crystal: Hey woman just thought I'd drop by. I actually had time to get on my own computer! Well anyways I left a small entry in mine and I'm gonna put more later. C-ya!

Sissy: Tanya, got to my journal and check out the puppy pictures!!!

Sissy: Good morning Tanya, It's early and I was just lookin around and decided to leave a little note. TTYL

Sissy: Tanya just checkin to see if there's anything new. I seen the tag from you in my journal that said you was gonna post another entry, it must not have worked. All is well here, Jim's home.

Mey: Hey Tanya. You havent been posting for a little while. Hope you are ok. Take care

Sissy: Hi Tanya, just checking in again. As I posted today in my journal, I'm gonna go to the emergency room tonight and get checked out. Just decided to let you know on here in case I don't talk to ya on the messenger. Bye

Mey: Take care honey and thans for sharing you picturesIf you decide to go on my blog the password in openmey

Sissy: Hi Tanya!!!

Just checkin it out. I left you a comment. Gotta go. BYE

Joyce: Hey Girl! I just stop bye to see what u have put new in your journal. I am glad u had good weekend. what is ur web journal name so I can u to my friend list on my web journal. Chow for now

Mey: Hey Tanya! Stumbled across your journal and liked it!!!

Joyce: Hey girl. I thought I would stop by and read ur journal. I think it is really good.

Sherry: Hi Tanya. Just checking to see if you've added another entry yet. Check out the bike pix in my journal. Bye.

cindy: welcome to blogland! So far it is really cute!

crystal: hey ton ton!

Staci: Hey Shelly's Sis. Welcome to Bravenet. Stop by my journal anytime, glad you joined.

Shelly: Hi Tanya, nice to see you on the web! I like the colors of your journal. Of course you don't regret having your kids - they're an awesome gift from God.

Welcome!

Rachel: Hi there! Enjoy your stay! Stop by anytime!

sis: You can click here for my Stephen journal.

Sherry: YEEE-HAWWW!!! You got a journal. You're gonna love it. C-YA

Tuesday, July 11th 2006

12:19 AM

Lonely

Mood: Lonely

Hey everyone hows it going? Oh well i am ok got a good job, great house, and kids that i love to death. Theres still something missing. LOVE I have it but i dont know if he does. Im starting to wonder. I know that he does love me but i dont know why he dont show it. For instance we use seperate blankets in bed! We dont say goodnight most of the time. The only time we say i love you is on the phone. We dont even talk. Well we talk we just dont have conversations. we have words. Theres no chit chat just gotta go to the doctor friday reply,ok what time 10 and thats the end of the conversation for abut an hour or more. Its weird, i say that we are just likd friends but that aint true either because friends talk to eachother we dont. He dont touch me he dont kiss me he dont say i love you first never does. I am actually scared and i dont know what to do because i need love a women deserves to know that she is loved and i am not feeling any. I know that he has been threw alot but damn so have I. We dont have a normal realationship. He wont even fight with me. He just says i am not going to have this conversation right now and thats the end of it even if i piss him off he still wont.i dont know if he is just not interested anymore of what. I just dont know what to do and i dont want to leave because there may be a chance that he will come around. I hope that he will. I cant stand this. I left a realationship that was better then this one. and thats pretty bad! i got more attention from my husband then i do now. I am scared that i am going to fall out of love with him if something dont happen fast. i have already thought about cheating on him and i realy dont want to do that. I love him too much but i need something other then a cold shoulder. its pretty bad when he spends more time with his dog then me. He makes it a point that when he gets home he comes in puts his stuff down and gets the dogs water and goes out there and plays with him for at least 20 to 30 min a night. but what about me? I am here too. I just want to scream at him HELLO CAN YOU SEE ME DO YOU EVEN KNOW I AM HERE DO YOU EVEN CARE? I feel like everyday a part of my heart is closing up and it will take it a miracle to fix it if it gets hurt anymore. I just about dont care what happens. As long as i have my kids.I cant even talk to him about it. he wont talk to me either. What should i do? Help me please!